I'm feeling cranky

I started a new diet today and I'm hungry and cranky. I know, how cliche is a new diet at the new year, but I had to. I got on the scale today and it wasn't pretty. I guess I've started to eat my way back to happiness since Mom passed. Problem is, I'm not getting back to happiness and getting unhappier by the pound. :(

Another thing I'm irritated about is my blog's background is now white when it should be dark gray. I don't know why it changed but I know when it did. I signed up my blog for Google Analytics so I could get some insight on my blogs traffic. So now until I can figure it out or just change my template, I'm stuck with this and I don't like it. I just don't get this html crap. If anybody knows how to put your own picture as the background of your blog, please help. I've googled it and found out how, it just doesn't fit right! grrrr! I need a cookie.

another day, another kit kat

Today was just beautiful. It was almost like late summer here besides those pesky lady beetles buzzing around everywhere. Temperatures are so nice that the hubs rode his motorcycle into work today. Sounds of birds chirping, Asher laughing, tractors and combines in the distance working hard. Still, sadness has a way of creeping in and casting a shadow on everything even as the sun shines brightly and a gentle wind kisses my neck.

I cannot seem to make myself do much of anything besides mundane everyday tasks like cook and clean up. And I'm not doing a great job of those. I have a bunch of new ideas for some new creations to create but don't feel much like making the effort. Sleeping sounds like the best idea that I can come up with. Do you ever feel like if you could just go back in time and change a few things that life might be a little bit better right now? It seems like I should be able to control what's going on and make changes, but I can't. Like waking up from a nightmare.

I have tried to update the way my blog looks. I took down the Halloween stuff and tried to add a little Fall stuff. I'm not really happy with my blog, but I'm not smart enough to make it the way I want it to look. I haven't found any templates that I'm just crazy about either. Has anybody found some great looking templates?