Wednesday, October 20, 2010

One year ago today

my angel now

One year ago today, my life ceased to exist as I knew it. One year ago today I lost my best friend, my confidante, my shoulder to cry, the one to laugh and remember with. One year ago today I lost my mother. One year ago today part of me died with her and it will never be back.

I'd like to say to the tears are not as frequent, but I'd be lying. So today I think of her and silently say a prayer and make a secret wish that God would let her return for just a moment to let me see her sweet face again and once more hear her voice and her arms around me... but it hasn't happened.

One year ago today I lost my mother to cancer and I will never be the same.


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7 comments:

  1. It does get better, but not completely. Whoever said time heals all wounds I suspect never had any wounds to heal. This is the closest bond you will ever have....over father, over child, over husband. Someone who carried you for nine months and gave you life will always be cherished and missed. My mother passed three days after Christmas 2008. I'm still mourning her is so many ways. I lost part of my history and memories when she passed. She was the only one left who remembered me as a baby and could answer so many unanswered questions I now have. I can't say I know how you feel because each loss is so personal, but I'm thinking of you and hoping we will always be women our mothers can be proud of. Take care.

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  2. Your words about your mother brought tears to my eyes. My heart goes out to you on this day of remembrance.

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  3. My hearts aches for you :( I'm not sure that you ever get over something like that, but I hope that your fond memories will see you through until you meet again :) xx

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  4. I feel the same way, Jaime...my mother has been gone since August of 2008. Your mom was a beautiful woman, wasn't she?!

    You know, I'll pray that The Lord will bless your dreams with a sweet embrace, with a touch of your face and a shine from her eyes....just to fill you up...but promise that it won't hurt, when you wake....hold it tight like a treasure, okay?

    {{hugs}}

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  5. I so know exactly how you feel Jaime...losing our moms is just so hard. Today I really missed my mom. Life will never be the same without these wonderful, sweet, incredible moms...we were so lucky to have had them as ours. Hugs to you.

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  6. Sending big hugs to you on this day - always try to remember your mom will never leave your side. She's always here with you - although not in a physical sense. I know it is only a small consolation for not having her right by your side - but keep the happiest times deep within your heart. Take care, Theresa

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  7. Oh, Jaime. Your mom was truly lovely. I can feel your hurt. I am sorry for your loss. Both my parents are gone now too. Things do change.

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