Today has been my mom's birthday. She would've been 67. I was just telling a friend that I've gotten out of the I can't believe it stage and moved more into a numb, thick and alone in my thoughts of her stage. For those who don't know, she died of cancer in October 2009. Read about her here.
Zinnia's were one of her most favorite flowers. Every year she would have her seeds that she would've saved from the previous year and some she couldn't resist and bought at the stores. She would procrastinate or lose them (the nut didn't fall too far from the tree on that one) and it could be as late as August and she would still plant them. I would tease her and tell her they wouldn't even bloom for a couple months and she would smile and say laughing "so I'll have flowers at Halloween!" I miss her optimism. I just miss her.
So every year I plant zinnia's for Mom. I have more zinnia's but I didn't get any good pictures of them. So many things I do I still think to myself, Mom like's that or Mom would do it this way. I still imagine her voice in my head talking to me, answering my questions.
So this is for Mom... I love you Mom.
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Awww Jaime, what a sweet post for your Mom. Again I must say that we were so Blessed with our two Moms who nurtured and loved on us and the thoughts, the missing her and just hearing her voice will be yours to Love and Cherish forever. She is looking down on you and smiling everyday at what an awesome daughter you are and an even more awesome mom to your son. How can we not miss the times we shared with those precious Mothers? Hugs to you xo
ReplyDeleteJaime, thinking of you at this time :)
ReplyDeleteI know it is a tough time but I LOVE your story about the zinnias (one of my fav. flowers too!)and your Mom planting them late (better late than never) it is those beautiful, individual moments that make our special connections with the ones we love :)
Take care, my blogger buddy, cheers, T. :)
What a beautiful post- and I know seeing her zinnias warms your heart.
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How sweet to honor your Mother with Zinnias. I still have a Philodendron plant that was my Moms (10 years later)Thank you for stopping by my blog with your well wishes.
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Thanks everyone for really sweet comments and thoughts. Memories are one of our best way to heal. I will always have them and keep them close to my heart.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. I plant lillies for that very reason for my grandmother. She grew them much better than me though. Just thinking about them now brought a tear to my eye.
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